Mentally Incarcerated

It’s so hard to make this prison break.These walls are too enclosed.These vessels in my brain have created their own cages.Making it even harder to escape it. I’m mentally incarcerated. Actions judged by my own reactions.Bearing false witness to my mentality.There are too many inmates in here.It’s getting crowded. Too much interactions with the bad…

Confused

Heart on my sleeve for eternity.Good quality, until it becomes too heavy.Then I realize it’s only hurting me.Confusing my energy. There is a delay in positivity.It definitely anchors me. I assume my personality is too strong.Sinking myself into deep depressions.I go about caring all too wrong.Giving my heart and mind two different impressions. Confused by…

Our Passion

Carmelized words on our sheets,So sweet.Stained with our essence.As though it were kissed with lipstick.Grasping our presence.We didn’t mean to leave it dirty.We’ve been flirting for years.Way before thirty.We’ve been speaking frequently.Quietly sneaking up on something more. This is just the beginning.Our story is passion.Heated aroma lingering.Tattooed interactions.It would be hard to forget this.Who has…

Polaroids

Capturing too much hurt with this Polaroid camera.Things I thought I could hide.Manipulating my state of mind. I’m left with these unwanted memories.Intruding upon any happiness I might encounter.Any opportunity to empower. Instant images to keep forever.Framed in a collage.And displayed as a mirage. I need to get rid of these polaroids.They’re creating hurt in…

Missing Emotions

Pleading with missing emotions. Hoping it would find it’s way back. I am numb, mainly on the interior. My heart is inferior to my mind. Pierced it to leave a trail. Nothing better than drops of my own blood. The best stains. All marks are not permanent. Follow the lines. What’s lost, you must find….

Russian Roulette

One bullet in the chamber.Heart sealed for my favor. You’re constantly playing Russian Roulette.Aiming at me for Death.Gaslighting started months after we met. Shooting at me ever since. Praying my last breath don’t be my last because of you. Your mouth is trigger happy. I’m nervous, angry, sad every time you speak to me.I need…

Not Here

It feels like I’m laying next to someone that doesn’t want to be here.Someone that is physically here but isn’t mentally present.This presents as a drawback.You’re pulling away from me. The lies feel like a language you couldn’t communicate.Maybe I need to learn how to speak it.I probably already failed.My heart is draining.The love is…

No Good Sensations

I need to pull away from you.Cut all temptations.I will regret it but I have to.You give me all type of sensations. I know your current can’t be good for me.My emotions have been causing such a dilemma.Your pull just won’t set me free.It has a different agenda. I need to completely eliminate love just…