These Insecurities

These insecurities cover me like those furry blankets that I’m allergic to. They cause way more harm than good to my livelihood. But I still cuddle with them at night-How smart! I take a benadryl everytime I feel the side effects. I must not care much for my self-Babysitting the very seed of my bad…

All Because of you

You’re causing an internal riot.Pitch forks for decisions-Either way they’ll hurt,The impact of choosing forcefully. You’re causing mayhem.I can’t seem to get it together.Every time you touch me, I shiver.This isn’t the ideal situation for my anxiety. I am chaotic.You are peaceful in royalty.Why can’t that be me? I don’t usually point fingers but this…

Chin up

Lady pick your chin up.He’s building you,Don’t let him break you.The lies were for you-To help you climb this hill,create muscles that you thoughtwere gone.You’re stronger now. Lady put a smile on.One that would be permanent.Don’t let him see anything else.Or else he’ll break you.He’ll see opportunity to continue-Hiding things from you thatyou know deep…

Love Letters

I love your mystery love letters. I can’t wait to open the mail and find one. I get butterflies every time I read what’s inside. Loving you always gets easier. Our stories get more dreamy. I can’t wait for the day I can look you in the eyes. The day this dream becomes reality. I’m…

Love and Hate

Love and hate have been courting eachother.It’s getting out of character.A positive connection to the wrong adapter. This was never an issue until recently.It’s clouding visions for everything I see.Sneaking around with chaos, peaceful. I hate to love you.I would love to hate the things you do..I need to eliminate a few. The way you…

Angel on Earth

I come so close to loosing life that it’s become a part of my life. Drowning is now a process for my breathing. So many times I’ve turned right but I’m always at the wrong destination. Sorrows are lingering next door, but there’s always an angel at my door waiting. Observing for the second I…

Dressing Pain

I keep dressing my wounds so they won’t hurt.I must be doing them wrong because they still burn.There’s something that I must be missing.Maybe I need soft, warm hands for the job.An angel disguised as a healer.Maybe I need her, not even a doctor.Why do I still hurt from a scar that’s covered?Maybe that’s the…

At the Cliff

Dangling at the edge of a cliff and I’m hanging on. Trying to hang on to my last breath. After this there’s no reset. But that would be my mistake. I believe intake on cloud nine is closed. It closed the moment I started heading towards the cliff. Am I a soul worth saving? Am…