Missing Emotions

Pleading with missing emotions. Hoping it would find it’s way back. I am numb, mainly on the interior. My heart is inferior to my mind. Pierced it to leave a trail. Nothing better than drops of my own blood. The best stains. All marks are not permanent. Follow the lines. What’s lost, you must find….

Russian Roulette

One bullet in the chamber.Heart sealed for my favor. You’re constantly playing Russian Roulette.Aiming at me for Death.Gaslighting started months after we met. Shooting at me ever since. Praying my last breath don’t be my last because of you. Your mouth is trigger happy. I’m nervous, angry, sad every time you speak to me.I need…

Not Here

It feels like I’m laying next to someone that doesn’t want to be here.Someone that is physically here but isn’t mentally present.This presents as a drawback.You’re pulling away from me. The lies feel like a language you couldn’t communicate.Maybe I need to learn how to speak it.I probably already failed.My heart is draining.The love is…

Wanting to be Provocative

She started to steal glances.And she liked it.She became the one that stole hearts. Provocative.Addictive. It was hard to believe she was ever shy.That she was ever conservative.But it was always a part of her.She always wanted to feel wanted.Used to paint her lips red for more than the person in the mirror.Wanted to arouse…

No Good Sensations

I need to pull away from you.Cut all temptations.I will regret it but I have to.You give me all type of sensations. I know your current can’t be good for me.My emotions have been causing such a dilemma.Your pull just won’t set me free.It has a different agenda. I need to completely eliminate love just…

Superstitious Belief

She was never the superstitious type.Never believed someone could use a needle to hurt another.How could the physical be connected in such a way?How could The soul travel on invisible paths to an inanimate object?There was so much she couldn’t fathom.Touring her intellect to fit the puzzle together.It just couldn’t be.Her belief had betrayed her.She…

Lost Infatuation

You used to give me butterflies.A feeling impossible to be ignored.Stored emotions where my heart layed.All infatuation.I gave you all my devotion.Any pain I felt was invisible around you.Buried for later resurrection.When you aren’t able to be around, like now.There’s no more infatuation.Just too much pain.Where are you?I wanna dance with you in the rain.I…

Sympathy

Cry for me daily.I manage to pull it together sometimes…Barely.I’m suffocating under your pressure.I don’t have your sympathy.Your recollection of my timeline is unfortunate.Unfortunately all you do is show me pity. I wish you would cry for me daily.I rather you show me that you want me bad enough.More than God needed Mary.As much as…