Holding me Back

I spent so much time building up my self esteem and you take twice as much time just to tear me down.

They say keep your friends close and your enemies closer.

With all the hate you show towards me I’m beginning to think that you are my enemy.

I thought we were lovers but you are not even a friend to me.

Like they say, what does love have to do with it? when all you want me to do is stay at home by the phone when you go out every night.

If this is your rendition of love then you need to revisit the dictionary.

I was your prisoner in my head long before I was your prisoner physically.

And even though you fail to show me love I’m still here.

Why do I still care?

Why am I still lusting over a boy in a man’s body?

Maybe I’m sick, but I don’t deserve this remedy.

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